Post by shir on Jul 27, 2004 6:27:29 GMT -5
just wana share the overwhelming feeling i felt last weekend.. sobrng touching lang tlga ung nangyre.. very empowering tlga. for quite a while naguguluhan kc ako sa mundo ko... pra kcng andme ko responsiblities.. pra kcng andmeng hinihinge sken ng mga tao around me.. and the more i give my best to everything that i do.. prang feeling ko the more na nde nila naapreciate ung effort ko.. the more na they are pushing me down.. the more na humhinge pa cla ng mas pa sa maibbgay ko.. prang i just wana burst out and say wala nkong maibbgay pa! prang i just wana quit and be selfish for a while. feeling ko kc god has been so unfaithful to me. pro nde pla.. ako pla ung nggive up. i came to the point na prang i just wana run away from everything... from everyone.. i almost did.
for a while nging sobrng selfish ako.. feeling ko kc un magpapasaya sken. feeling ko kc lahat ng tao gusto ako saktan. ntkot ako magmhal.. in every sense.. even with my friends and family.. i dont wana be attached to anyone.. nttkot ako na kc bka iiwan din nila ako. feeling ko im better off alone.. na kaia ko mgisa.. pro nde.. nde din.. mas nging mlungkot at mgulo..
looking back nkakatwa tlga.. npakagaling lang tlga.. sobrng sanay kc ako sa mga retreats... alam ko na lhat ng nangyyre.. nkpaglead ndin ako ng camp so sobrng immune nko.. usually excited ako pmunta sa ganyan kc mkkipagkwentuhan ako sa mga friends ko.. and makakalabs ako ng bhay nmen.pro iba tlga ung nangyre sken dis weeknd... ngkaron ako ng time to reflect and think about the things that has happend.
sana lang nde pa too late pra ayusin ko ung mga bgay na naiwan ko.. sana lang.. its is still not too late pra maibalik ko ulit kung cnu ako.. slowly nkkita ko na ulit ung vision ko... things are much clearer this time. slowly narerealize ko na ung faults ko and slowly nakakyanan ko na mgtake ng risk.. sana lang people around wud give me another chance.
i wud like to thank the people hu have alweiz been there for me. for being my strength... for carrying me to ba able to surpass the challenges that has come my way.
efter everything... i bealive that i hve grown.. spiritually, intellectualy and emotionally. god bless everyone!!! labshu!
for a while nging sobrng selfish ako.. feeling ko kc un magpapasaya sken. feeling ko kc lahat ng tao gusto ako saktan. ntkot ako magmhal.. in every sense.. even with my friends and family.. i dont wana be attached to anyone.. nttkot ako na kc bka iiwan din nila ako. feeling ko im better off alone.. na kaia ko mgisa.. pro nde.. nde din.. mas nging mlungkot at mgulo..
looking back nkakatwa tlga.. npakagaling lang tlga.. sobrng sanay kc ako sa mga retreats... alam ko na lhat ng nangyyre.. nkpaglead ndin ako ng camp so sobrng immune nko.. usually excited ako pmunta sa ganyan kc mkkipagkwentuhan ako sa mga friends ko.. and makakalabs ako ng bhay nmen.pro iba tlga ung nangyre sken dis weeknd... ngkaron ako ng time to reflect and think about the things that has happend.
sana lang nde pa too late pra ayusin ko ung mga bgay na naiwan ko.. sana lang.. its is still not too late pra maibalik ko ulit kung cnu ako.. slowly nkkita ko na ulit ung vision ko... things are much clearer this time. slowly narerealize ko na ung faults ko and slowly nakakyanan ko na mgtake ng risk.. sana lang people around wud give me another chance.
i wud like to thank the people hu have alweiz been there for me. for being my strength... for carrying me to ba able to surpass the challenges that has come my way.
efter everything... i bealive that i hve grown.. spiritually, intellectualy and emotionally. god bless everyone!!! labshu!
